...songs I'm digging tonight--*

So...looking at the lyrics, there COULD be an argument for a theme going on here, but really I just like the sounds--some great melodies and fun arrangements--enjoy!

Ben Folds featuring Regina Spektor - You Don't Know Me
excerpt:
You could have just propped me up on the table like a mannequin
Or a cardboard stand-up and paint me (paint me)
Any face that you wanted me To be seen.
We're Damned by the existential moment where
We saw the couple in the coma and
It was we were the cliché,
But we carried on anyway.

Matt Nathanson - Come On Get Higher
excerpt:
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
I miss the sound of your voice
Loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet
Perfect words that you said

Madeleine Peyroux - I'm Alright
excerpt:
I asked the boy for a few kind words
He gave me a novel instead
But I'm all right
I'm all right

Colbie Caillat - Magic
excerpt:
You've got magic inside your finger tips
Its leaking out all over my skin
Everytime that I get close to you
Your making me weak with the way you
Look through those eyes

Dave Matthews - Grace is Gone
excerpt:
One drink to remember,
And another to forget.
How could I ever dream to find a love like this again?
One drink to remember, another to forget...

Now that you've read through, don't think that I'm making some comment on my "love life" or anything...

And...we're back!

I think it's been almost two months since I've even been to Blogger...I'd like to say that I was busy doing crazy, exotic, and amazing things or studying language abroad or even taking an experimental vow of silence...

But the truth is, I was just really depressed for a good share of the summer. I foolishly let a couple of interpersonal situations throw me off guard and get the best of me and just...spiraled out. I quit my job on a whim--it was a toxic work environment though, I must say--without having anything lined up, and was unemployed for over a month with no savings and no plan.

As I've mentioned in this amazing post/discussion thread found on This Time This Space, it is so everloving difficult to see depression while in the midst of it, and I am particularly talented at hiding it from myself and most others.

A chance encounter turned into a thoughtful friendship. This person and our friendship has and continues to inspire me to explore my personal space rather than simply wallow in it, be unapologetically true to my needs, trust in letting go, and believe in my own abilities of manifestation. Before it sounds like I again am putting too much stock outside of myself, sometimes we all need a catalyst to start our own chain reaction. I'm definitely rolling my own ball--*

So...yes, I'm back. I'm feeling a little bit...exposed...for sharing all of this, but it feels good to be honest and open.

Update: When I re-read this, I am struck by how bizarre a concept that it's taken me two months to return to the mental state in which I started. True, I do feel more sincerely grounded than before things started sliding downhill, but I'm now piecing back together the interests, hobbies, and research subjects that I "used to enjoy". I feel like Gandolf in Lord of the Rings: "Gandolf the Grey...that is what they used to call me!" I feel almost as though I am recovering from a coma.

The day I woke up deciding to let go and take life back, I interviewed and was hired for an amazing new job that will be challenging, personally fulfilling, and mentally stimulating.

~thank you~